Ela fechava a porta, ligava o chuveiro e pensava... Enquanto a água do chuveiro caia simultaneamente com suas lágrimas. Sentada, ela observava o destino de suas lágrimas se cruzando com o da água, o mesmo destino... Um destino de nunca mais voltar.
Certo dia, como era de rotina, ela fechou a porta do banheiro e sentiu a vontade de chorar, e as lágrimas não saiam.. Tentou ligar o chuveiro e também nada. Ela sentiu um nó na garganta, e pensou: "Cadê minhas lágrimas e a água?". Depois de alguns minutos ela tomou consciência, de que ela tinha acabado com todas suas lágrimas e a água, tudo em vão.
E a água e as lágrimas não voltariam jamais......
Desculpem-me sumir, mas voltei com o blog tudo novo... Quero desejar boas festas, bom Natal e Feliz Ano novo para todos!
Because when it doesn't matter anymore and with much insistence, you don't care anymore and you'll just go ahead with whatever. Yes, I'll regret this in time to come but what can I do. This is for 2 years but she'll be there forever. As much as I don't like it, what am I to do? The deed is done and all I can do is to wait until results come out on the 27th. I'll just let the higher beings above do the job. If I'm meant to be there then so be it, I can't change my fate. But for now, I'm hoping and praying that I won't regret this.
I'm just wishing somehow everything can fall into place without me making any decisions. I should have just let her do all the thinking, maybe I won't end up so miserable. Maybe if I just stayed at home and not gone to any open houses, I would have accepted the fact that maybe that school is better. Maybe if I hadn't asked any questions, I would just accept it. But now after all that, I can hardly accept it. If on the 27th I receive the sms that I got in, then I'll just accept it.
I don't want to care anymore.
I wanted to get it over and done with to get the big boulder off, but after doing it, I feel that it has just gotten worse. Maybe I won't be able to sleep peacefully tonight, maybe I'll hate myself in the future of being too obedient. But maybe I'll find out that I might like it there after all. I don't know. Today has been too horrible.
On the other hand, thank you all for being supportive all the way.
And for future reference, here are my first four choices :
Ela fechava a porta, ligava o chuveiro e pensava... Enquanto a água do chuveiro caia simultaneamente com suas lágrimas. Sentada, ela observava o destino de suas lágrimas se cruzando com o da água, o mesmo destino... Um destino de nunca mais voltar.
Certo dia, como era de rotina, ela fechou a porta do banheiro e sentiu a vontade de chorar, e as lágrimas não saiam.. Tentou ligar o chuveiro e também nada. Ela sentiu um nó na garganta, e pensou: "Cadê minhas lágrimas e a água?". Depois de alguns minutos ela tomou consciência, de que ela tinha acabado com todas suas lágrimas e a água, tudo em vão.
E a água e as lágrimas não voltariam jamais......
Desculpem-me sumir, mas voltei com o blog tudo novo... Quero desejar boas festas, bom Natal e Feliz Ano novo para todos!
Because when it doesn't matter anymore and with much insistence, you don't care anymore and you'll just go ahead with whatever. Yes, I'll regret this in time to come but what can I do. This is for 2 years but she'll be there forever. As much as I don't like it, what am I to do? The deed is done and all I can do is to wait until results come out on the 27th. I'll just let the higher beings above do the job. If I'm meant to be there then so be it, I can't change my fate. But for now, I'm hoping and praying that I won't regret this.
I'm just wishing somehow everything can fall into place without me making any decisions. I should have just let her do all the thinking, maybe I won't end up so miserable. Maybe if I just stayed at home and not gone to any open houses, I would have accepted the fact that maybe that school is better. Maybe if I hadn't asked any questions, I would just accept it. But now after all that, I can hardly accept it. If on the 27th I receive the sms that I got in, then I'll just accept it.
I don't want to care anymore.
I wanted to get it over and done with to get the big boulder off, but after doing it, I feel that it has just gotten worse. Maybe I won't be able to sleep peacefully tonight, maybe I'll hate myself in the future of being too obedient. But maybe I'll find out that I might like it there after all. I don't know. Today has been too horrible.
On the other hand, thank you all for being supportive all the way.
And for future reference, here are my first four choices :
Sofia Carolina, 20/01. Ribeirão Preto - SP, prefere matemática e física do que educação física. Gosta muito de ler. Pretende um dia descobrir planetas e coisas do Universo. Viciada em Gossip Girl e Robbie Williams. Consegue se comunicar melhor em inglês do que em português. Pensa bastante, fala bastante e mais pensa do que faz... Ela é completamente apaixonada pela impossivel. Se deixar ela fica o dia inteiro ouvindo Robbie Williams, Damien Rice e John Mayer. Toca violão, ou pelo menos tenta.
"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boats, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much, that it makes me sick, And even makes me hime. I hate the always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you not around, and the fact that you didn't call... But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, Not even close, Not even a little bit, Not even at all."
se for adicionar, diga que pegou meu orkut/msn no blog.
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Sofia Carolina, 20/01. Ribeirão Preto - SP, prefere matemática e física do que educação física. Gosta muito de ler. Pretende um dia descobrir planetas e coisas do Universo. Viciada em Gossip Girl e Robbie Williams. Consegue se comunicar melhor em inglês do que em português. Pensa bastante, fala bastante e mais pensa do que faz... Ela é completamente apaixonada pela impossivel. Se deixar ela fica o dia inteiro ouvindo Robbie Williams, Damien Rice e John Mayer. Toca violão, ou pelo menos tenta.
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